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Who Are You?
I am a teenage girl that is honest with everyone else but herself.
Whose arms do you fall into?
My best friend in the whole world, Emily.
What is the one miracle you are waiting for?
I am waiting for him to tell me he loves me because I know he feels the same way.
What is your weapon?
My weapon are my tears.
Whom do you miss the most?
I miss Leah the most. She was too young to die.
What are you scared of?
I’m scared that my life will fall apart because it’s taking me too long to get back to where I was. I’m terrified of ending up alone.
What is your favorite memory?
My favorite memory was when I was little and I dressed up as a bride and went out to Chinese food like that. I wish that I still had no cares in the world like I did when I was a kid. I want to stop growing up. Life is only getting more complicated and hard.
When was the last time God spoke to you and what did He say?
I was in Israel and I was putting my note in the Western Wall. He told me that it was all going to be OK and work out. I’m still trying to figure out if I completely believe Him.
What words are you holding onto in your pockets?
I’m holding onto the words “life is beautiful.” If I don’t think that, then I can’t accept anything that is happening in my life, ever. Those words keep me going everyday.
What’s the best advice you’ve ever been given?
My friends told me that I am too negative about everything. They told me that I can’t live in the past because that can’t change anything. You have to live each day like it’s your last and make the most out of any situation that is thrown at you. Live for the future, because that is what will keep you motivated to make life better.
What advice would you give to your parents that will help them in raising you?
Yelling never solves anything. It just makes situations worse. You have to treat each other with respect. That’s the only way that a family will stay close.
Is there sometimes an emptiness inside you and what does it feel like?
The emptiness of not being wanted by anyone is always inside me. My biggest fear is to end up alone, so that always is in my mind, which causes the emptiness.
Are you enough?
I am not enough because I will never be able to fully except myself for who I am on the inside and outside.